Troubled singer Sinead O’Connor posted this note which some Twitter users have a called a “suicide note” to her Facebook page on November 29. A spokesman for the Irish police force told Heavy.com that they cannot speculate on cases. BreakingNews.ie in Ireland reported that just after 1 p.m. Eastern time, O’Connor was found alive and was receiving medical attention.
This is the message in full:
There is only so much any woman can be expected to bear. What was done to me this week was appalling cruelty. By my husband, my family, by St Pats and by An Gardai Siochana, by my son, Jake and by Donal Lunny and Angela singleton, by my son’s girlfriend, his friends… after everything I’ve been put through and been forced to go through alone .. And punished for having to go through since I had the surgery on August 26th. Or since Shane became unwell in March, This week has broken me.
The withholding of my babies from me without any sound reason by their fathers, Frank and Donal, and by Jake and the rest of my family, is a horrific set of betrayals. And has been going on since I had my surgery. The last two nights finished me off. I have taken an overdose. There is no other way to get respect. I am not at home, I’m at a hotel, somewhere in ireland, under another name
If I wasn’t posting this, my kids and family wouldn’t even find out. Was dead for another fortnight since none of them bother their hole with me for a minute. I could have been dead here for weeks already and they’d never have known. Because apparently I’m scum and deserve to be abandoned and treated like shit just when I’ve had my womb and ovaries chopped out and my child is frighteningly sick. I’m such a rotten horrible mother and Person, that I’ve been alone. Howling crying for weeks. And been told by them all t go fuck myself. I’m invisible. I don’t matter a shred to anyone. No one has come near me. I’ve died a million times already with the pain of it. So yeah.. Strangers like me.. But my family don’t value me at all. They wouldn’t know if I was dead until weeks from now if I wasn’t fucking informing them now.
well done guys, you’ve finally got rid of me. Sorry the penny didn’t drop sooner. I’m an idiot. When you planned to get me away from my babies did you plan for me losing my mind over it? It being the final straw? For how you’re gonna explain why I died? Make sure you tell the truth. BARRY.. THEY WONT. YOURE THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS ME OR THE TRUTH. PLEASE STAND FOR ME AND TELL IT. i can’t play twister. My children don’t care if I live r die anyway. Neither do their dads. Everyone is better off. Never ever do this to a woman again. Let this be your lesson. I survived it when John waters did it.. I can’t survive Jake doing it.
The message makes reference to her son, Jake, Irish musician Donal Lunny as well as a surgery she apparently had in August 2015. In March 2004, O’Connor and Lunny had a son together, Shane.
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Also referenced is her husband, Barry Herridge, who she’s been married to since December 2011. The couple renewed their vows in February 2014, reported the Daily Mirror. He is her fourth husband.
Prior to writing her “suicide note,” O’Connor wrote on her page that she was quitting music for good saying “I need a new home. And a new job. A new life … Music is over for me. Music did this. It rendered me invisible. Murdered my soul. I’m never going back to music.”
The “surgery” she refers to in the note is likely the hysterectomy she underwent in August 2015.
During a 2007 interview with Oprah, O’Connor said that she had been diagnosed as bi-polar. In a subsequent appearance on the show in 2014, she said that after seeking several second opinions, the diagnosis was changed.