WATCH: Lea Michele Opens Up About Cory Monteith’s Death on Ellen

Lea Michele appears on the Ellen Show today to perform her new song as well as open up about dealing with the death of her love Cory Monteith. Michele actually talks about how she hid out at Kate Hudson’s house while she was grieving the loss of Cory so that she could escape the paparazzi. Plus, she said it was great to get away from her house, which had a lot of memories of her life with Cory.

As far as the tribute Glee had for Monteith, Lea Michele talks about how it was better for her to be there at work than to sit at home. She then opens up further with a powerful statement:

I think at a certain point you can choose to sort of fall from this or you can choose to rise. And that’s what I’m just trying to do my best for him because I know that that’s what he would have wanted and to just do my best and to you know, hopefully make something positive for where I go in the rest of my life.

Moving on to Lea Michele’s music, she says that Cory greatly influenced her. In fact, her song “If You Say So” is about him. She reveals to Ellen DeGeneres:

Cory got to hear all but two songs on the record and he had notes all the time when I would come home and play him a song. Then after everything happened I met with Sia who’s incredible and she said do you want to write anything about this? And, I think one of the hardest things is the feeling like you’re going to forget everything, so I felt it was important to just take a moment to see what we could come up with.

She further talks about her relationship with music artist Sia and how they came to create Michele’s single “Cannonball.”

I explained to her you know how grief really just, you can get sucked into it. You can literally lose yourself if you don’t actually die from it you can lose yourself completely. Sia said, ‘Oh, that’s so crazy cause I wrote this song it’s called ‘Cannonball’ and you just said the lyrics.