In a 2010 interview on Marc Maron’s WTF podcast, Robin Williams told his fellow comedian that he only contemplated suicide once. He added that it came during a drinking binge. In light of Williams recent suicide, this makes for pretty disturbing listening. You can listen above, the suicide conversation begins at 52 minutes.
Here’s a transcript, via Lets Get Real Pod of what Williams says:
MARC MARON: You don’t seem to me like someone who is morbidly fascinated or hung up on death?
ROBIN WILLIAMS: No that’s weird. When I was drinking there was only one time, even for a moment where I thought “F*ck life”. And I went like, then even my conscious brain went like “Did you honestly just say “F*ck life”. You know you have a pretty good life as it is right now. Have you noticed the two houses? Yes. Have you noticed the girlfriend? Yes. Have you noticed that things are pretty good even though you’re not working right now? Yes. Let’s put the suicide over here and discuss it. Let’s put that in the discussion area.
First of all you don’t have the balls to do it. I’m not going to say it out loud. Have you thought about buying a gun? No. What were you going to do, cut your wrist with a water pick? Maybe…
Can I put that here in the “What the F*ck!” Category. Can I ask you what you’re doing right now? You’re sitting in a hotel room with a bottle of Jack Daniels. Is this maybe influencing your decision? Possibly.
OK. And who’s that in the bed over there? I don’t know. Well don’t discuss that with her cuz she may tweet it. This may not be good… let’s put that over here. We can talk about that in therapy or maybe a podcast two years from now. You wanna talk about it in a podcast? No I feel safe. You’re talking about it in a podcast. Who is this? It’s your conscience Asshole.
MARON: That was a nice interval.
WILLIAMS: Discussions of death, its very freeing Thank You.
MARON: It’s a little, you know you’ve had all this stuff and there’s a certain degree of – It doesn’t matter.
WILLIAMS: Big time!
MARON: It doesn’t matter.
If you or anybody you know is struggling with depression, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is open 24/7 on 1-800-273-8255.