Fredrik Eklund and Husband Derek Kaplan on ‘Million Dollar Listing New York’ Season 5

Fredrik Eklund & Husband Derek Kaplan

Last season on Million Dollar Listing New York, we saw that Fredrik Eklund was embarking on a new life with his husband Derek Kaplan as the two were finally starting a family. Unfortunately, as season 5 begins, the couple is at a loss in that department, and, though it hasn't been addressed on the show yet, the couple has also lost one of their beloved pooches. Eklund talked about how hard it was to deal with their family dreams being crushed on TV to People, explaining: It's a very difficult thing to do because when you – when you're that sad, everything feels somewhat empty and you feel alone and you struggle and you feel helpless.It's difficult as it is but then to do that on camera and not knowing where it's all going to go ... It was tough. The couple had been expecting a child together via surrogate. Unfortunately, their surrogate miscarried and in September 2015, Eklund posted this message on Instagram: I'm sad to share we've had a failed pregnancy. I have cried so much that I can't cry anymore. We were pregnant with twins but we're not anymore. I chose to share this here, because I made this quest for Milla (and hopefully her sibling) public a long time ago. Every day I meet people congratulating me and Derek on the baby news, I get baby clothes sent to the office by kind strangers, and it seems that more people are invested in our little family than I could ever imagine. Our family is no different from yours... we just want to build our own unit of love in our own home. The last couple of days I couldn't take it anymore, to upkeep this perception of happiness and success when I've been a total sad mess inside. I've felt like a failure and that I'll never get to where I want to go: for me and Derek to finally become parents. I've heard these stories so many times before, about couples who've tried so hard and for so long but now I fully understand how difficult it can be.I try to zoom out and see the bigger picture. It's hard most of the time. It gets a little better. It does. Derek is so kind, especially at night when I've been the saddest. We do have the dogs. We have our family and friends. They say it's common in the first ten weeks. Mini kisses my salty tears. And we will try again. We have to. I'm not giving up. We're just not going to give up! We have to go on and simply try again. Yet, I wonder... where is she now? Is she already out there somewhere, above? Is she waiting for us like she's always been waiting, just a little longer? Can she see all of this, but just doesn't have a worldly form yet to reach out, give me a sign and make me stronger? Eklund's husband Derek Kaplan already has one child, a son named Kai. For more information on Eklun and his artist husband Kaplan, click through our gallery of their best photos. (Instagram/FredrikEklundNY)